A few people in my life are, at present, driving me absolutely insane.
It makes me wish I didn't put so much value in what people think of me.
Can someone explain to me what I did to deserve this sudden onslaught of negativity? I've made every possible attempt to be there for both of you when you needed me. I'm not perfect, but I've tried. I really have.
But I really can't spend all this time trying to please everyone else. At some point, I have to start focusing on what's best for me and not what conveniences you. And furthermore, contrary to what you've told me along the way, I'm not stupid. And I'm not short-sighted just because I'm younger than you. I can see the bigger picture just like you can, but for all my cynicism, at least I go out on a limb every now and then. I think that counts for something.
I'm tired of being your lightning rod of hate.
Anyway...
My Rosetta Stone suit arrived today. :) I'm really excited to start learning German. I took a few lessons today and it was actually a lot of fun. It doesn't feel like work at all and I'm retaining quite a bit of the information already.
Come hell or high water, I'm making that trip to Europe next year. I'm going to live abroad for three months, soak up the local color, travel off the beaten path, and it's going to be awesome. I feel like I really need this. I have for a long time.
Der Schleier fällt. Verlaß die Schatten...
